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A great song that was once
recommended by a good friend.

Hey you,
This song reminds me of you.
Thanks a bunch.
It's motivatin somehow :)

I prefer to laugh since there's less cleanin up to do afterward

All blame is a waste of time. No matter how much fault you find with another and regardless of how much you blame that person, it will not change you. The only thing that blame can do is to keep the focus off you when you are looking for external reasons to explain your frustration. You may succeed in making another feel guilty about something by blaming that person but you won't succeed in changing whatever it is about you that is making you unhappy.

A great start, maybe?

I get a little gloomy when change is coming. I can't really pinpoint what i'm feeling right now. Part of me is excited and the other part is wondering where in the hell the last five years went. With the unsteadiness sense here and there, comes my inability to finish anything i have started; i can't keep up with the feeling that i'm going to leave home, my family soon! Seriously, it's killing me. When i came across this one, at this very moment, all that matters are these precious THINGS in my life. Umi Ayah, no matter what change is coming; for your extreme patience and understanding, i know it wasn’t always easy but for loving me, i owe you my best thanks. I'm willing to wake up out of that breakdown. Thank you so much for being there.

The charming gardeners who make my soul blossom

Going deeper and deeper

It is definitely nice to hear when someone has good faith in you; someone who tells you that you're doing great, you've improved so much, you should be proud of yourself. That person reminds me of my mother who used to be a teacher before. Don't know how many times i'm telling you this, but i have always wanted to be like her [maybe bacause she inpsires me alot] to be a teacher, be in that school environment, to be in a room full of people who are not just learning because it is highly scheduled for certain period and the state requires for years of it. But there's something really charming about being able to guide a reader or writer and watch them become the adults they're going to be and to help building their character, values, and goals. I think that kind of relationship in school is very rare though not necessarily impossible and just to imagine that if i get a note from a student that say “Words cannot describe how much you’ve done for me. Thank you, thank you, thank you” There! Something magical to feel valued and it's all that matters most for me.

Breathe again ;)

Deal With It!

Lokasi: Staffroom MRSM Kubang Pasu
Waktu: 8.23am
Situasi: Morning conversation with Puan Amy [Mentor Teacher]

Kak Amy: So Nadia, when are you going to start teaching? Supposed to be this week right?

Me: Urm. When i have fully build up my level of confidence? Hehe [Smiling innocently]

Kak Amy: You only have two weeks here kan? Sampai bila nak tunggu level of confidence tu datang? [Gelak pendek] Takpe la. You just take 1 short lesson je pun dah ok.

Me: Haha. [Lemah jantung tetibe] Ok. So when's the short period then?

Kak Amy: Tomorrow. After recess.

Me: [Migrain tetibe] Ouh. Short period will be fine i guess. Ok la Kak Amy. I'll take the challenge! [Statement poyo]

Kak Amy: Good. So make sure you're fully prepared yea?

Me: InsyaAllah [I am so dead]

And so, tomorrow's gonna be a wicked Wednesday for Nadya Mansor. Hohoho! Breathe in and breathe out ;)

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Previous lecture was fully comprehensible. Love the topic. Found it more interesting since we talked about Classroom Discipline. In fact, because of this lesson i made a hard confession to my friends how evil i was during my primary school :)


1. Standard One [1995] I was been kicked out by my English teacher for behaving like a nuisance, pain in the ass. I was playing 'Armies & Wars' with my friends before waiting for Miss Beth's presence. I stood on my desk and screamed to the whole class, pretending to be the leader holding a long wooden ruler, commanding "Let the war begins!!!" It was the stupidest thing i've ever done and yes, i made my teacher turned green once she entered the room. She then asked me to stand outside the class till the end of the lesson. She was so angry of course. But i didn't feel that guilty anyway. Yeah, i was a total dumb.

2. Another tragic incident happened during the primary's when an Indian girl provoked Miss Beth, telling that i made a sinful behaviour for calling her [the girl] smelly. I don't know how many times she bathe at home but yeah, i should've never said those kinds of stuffs. That girl was so upset and i know i was a total jerk but i thought it was fine to tell the truth! So it ended up like bull till i was been sent to the headmaster's office to apologize this freakin crappy irritating lil girl in front of my friends, Miss Beth and my headmaster. Urgh! It was the most embarrassing moment and i felt like killing that damn girl for real!

3. Standard 6 [2000] I've once made my classmate cry like hell because i said something brainless to her. Something to do with personal issues and i think the statement that came out from my mouth was totally unacceptable. Can't tell why but yes, i am mean for God sake. Gosh. Can't believe that girl was me either. Right from that very moment, it was the biggest turn up for a little girl named Nadia. A very big one!


Friends thought that i'm the weirdest creature they've ever known. I think it's cool for being that dynamic huh? Haha. Because there'll be one point where you started to take the risk to change. Sometimes you need to be bad to be good. Yup! It just happened and you didn't even realize since when you started to be nice either. LOL. But frankly speaking, i just love the way i am right now. Always in blurry. You know i love being blurred most of the time because i think it's the best way to avoid myself from judging bad about people or say anything that might hurt anyone. Just don't wanna hurt anybody, that's all. Nobody. Not anymore :)